Sometimes I’m so goth and emo I astound myself!
Here’s one side of an IM conversation I had with an old friend last night, shortly before I went into the bathroom and started cutting. (note: I didn’t start cutting.)
ME: hello!
ME: so I clicked on Satisfaction’s page on myspace
and then I saw a Smile profile and clicked on that
and listened to a song
ME: and it reminded me so much of the old days and playing in a band and even before that, just being at shows where you guys were playing and hanging out with you and rob over ten years ago
ME: that it was like this poignancy balloon burst in my heart
I think I had a nostalgia aneurysm
it was fairly unpleasant
ME: sometimes I get hit so hard by old memories I feel like my heart is getting squeezed
Man, I love me some Rosen in the afternoon!
I’ve never understood what emo actually means! Does it mean someone who is “in to themselves or emotional or what?” I’m to lazy to go search the term!
I swam all weekend and the temperature at my friend’s was 114 degrees! She kept her house so freakin cold inside that I swear if there was any moisture in the air there would be a snow flurry inside. Sumer is here! wOOt!
I sometimes too get these pangs of nostalgia that can make me a little sad. I think it is because single people aren’t busy with kids, and married people are too tired to feel any sensations of nostalgia. I asked a few of my friends who have spouses and kids, and they said to me, “what the heck are you talking about?”
Toddrod
Quote of the emo:
“Don’t you dare make fun of me Alison….”
–Edward “The Mute” Scissor Hands
Alison, I just noticed that your last four blog posts contained a lot of pain that you seem to be going through. I hope you are ok. *smooch*
Toddrod
I don’t think “nostalgia aneurysm” is a valid ICD-9 classification code. In fact, I know it isn’t.
The reason I know that is because I used to work for a medical software company and we had to use ICD-9 and CPT-4 classification codes. And of course I had all tens of thousands of the codes memorized. Go ahead, test me.
593.89? Kidney decapsulation
057.8? Monkey pox
524.30? Abnormal teeth spacing
600.10? Hard firm prostate
529.3? Hairy black tongue (my personal favorite)
Tell me what’s wrong with you and I’ll give you the code. It saves a lot of time at the doctor’s office. I just walk up to the nurse’s station and say, “516.0” which everyone knows is Rosen-Castleman-Liebow syndrome. Duh.
What’s with all the thunderstorms here? A storm cell moved through yesterday afternoon and blew out the internet service. Then about 3 a.m. this morning the electricity went off.
OK, Mother Nature – Enough!
You should feel fortunate you don’t have a car to support, Alison. I just filled up my Trailblazer, and at $4.10 a gallon it cost $65.
Thank goodness I don’t have to drive as much as I used to. I used to fill up every week, so that would be a monthly gas bill of $260. Now I just fill up about once a month.
But I have friends who commute pretty far every day. One woman I used to work with and her husband drive about 80 miles round trip to work and back home every day. They each have their own cars, one of which is a minivan because they have 3 kids. Ouch!