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Here's where I pour my fat heart out

I would like to be past a lot of this. I’m not yet.

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111 Responses to Here's where I pour my fat heart out

  1. LouisBurgos November 8, 2011 at 1:08 pm #

    You are pretty Alison. 

    I would hit that. 
    Many would hit that. 
    Hundreds and hundreds of fellows would hit that.Not that we will. We are too polite to. But we would. And that thought alone is good.Right?Maybe not.Kinda weird if you think about it.
    Ahh. The life of the beautiful.

  2. Davidb451 November 8, 2011 at 1:17 pm #

    I lost 100 lbs in the last year. I'm 31 so i spent my teens and twenties very over weight. I understand.

  3. Jett November 8, 2011 at 1:19 pm #

    Let's talk about curtains. As a fat person this video makes me feel like shit. What if someone found out Im fat!? That would be the worst! C'mon, you're more interesting than this, Teressa.

  4. Tim Borbely November 8, 2011 at 1:21 pm #

    Heard the 'cast, K N E W (hoped) this vlog post would be coming.  Felt awkward FOR you as I listened to the show. 🙁

    I must say though…you handled it well…with composure, professionalism, and dignity, both “live” and “upon review.”

    S'all good.  You rock.  *fist bump*

  5. Gina November 8, 2011 at 1:21 pm #

    Alison, thank you. It must be so hard to bring that feeling around with you everywhere. I hope you're able to keep talking about this until you're no longer in a place where the mention of the topic throws you off like that. I know how unsettling it feels. 

  6. Mike November 8, 2011 at 1:22 pm #

    Getting it out there and addressing it quickly is probably the best thing you did for yourself, but I do think you're wrong on one item…when you reveal something about yourself in the past, people don't all of sudden change the way they see you or change what they think of you going forward…they just see you for who you are in the present and what they've known of you since their first impression of you…(maybe that's too simplistic)..but if you apply it to others around you, you know its true…keep it up, keep being funny, get out of your own head..

  7. boinkity November 8, 2011 at 1:23 pm #

    Hi Alison! I was thinking that the problem is NOT that you feel uncomfortable about being overweight at one time. Your problem is, and may continue to be that your anxiety is based on your need for absolute control and the desire for perfection. I've seen a trend ever since you were in New York. First, the couch. No other couch was acceptable except for ONE couch. Then when you moved to SoCal, there was the whole apartment hunt that took you 100 times longer than the average, normal human being. Now, there is this curtain crisis that you are having to deal with on a daily basis. I don't think the pain is that you were once a little overweight. The pain is that you feel this is some of type of flaw with you as a person, and you have no control over the past, and people knowing the truth. The only problem is that the person that you are now, the person that everyone seems to really love, and enjoy, and is entertained by is probably a result of who you were in your past. Embrace your past fluffy self! Give thanks to the extra body that was once you, but no longer exists. The memory of Alison Rosen as a slightly larger version of the current svelt Alison Rosen should be looked at with kind regard and appreciation. I, too, will celebrate the once expansive Alison Rosen with a chocolate milkshake.

  8. Rognog November 8, 2011 at 1:31 pm #

    Uncomfortable moments make good radio and today's podcast was just that.  You're not fat anymore.

  9. Don P. Nagai November 8, 2011 at 1:34 pm #

    All I can say is we see the good, the skills, and the talent you demonstrate in everything we have the pleasure of viewing (or hearing on a podcast).  Nothing can change that.

  10. Jacks November 8, 2011 at 1:39 pm #

    Relax.  You are a smart and beautiful young women…….Also,  you may be fucking crazy.

  11. tony decoste November 8, 2011 at 1:47 pm #

    you're among the funniest women in the media, you shred the guitar like nobody's business, and of course you're beautiful. staying in shape is an uphill battle for most of us, until you mentioned the chubby girl comment on the show i just assumed you were always in shape but knowing that you aren't perfect makes you even more attractive, because who the hell likes barbie? that blonde bitch is unrealistic. in short: haters are gonna hate because you're awesome, plain and simple!

  12. Patrick A Crone November 8, 2011 at 1:50 pm #

    I know this is sorta a back handed compliment, but I think you being a chubby kid made you a much better thin adult. I was a chubby kid through out my high school years, and although it sucked being heavy, it made me develope other strengths in my personality.

  13. Robert November 8, 2011 at 1:51 pm #

    I was jealous of the guys in tournament of Rosen. Never thought you were even a LITTLE overweight. I think you're forgetting the root of the compliment that Ace gave you: you're SMART. And while it's trite to say it, wverybody's appearance will eventually be an issue; your personality is what you have to live with. You'll make someone very happy in your old age. Not to mention that you're beautiful, now.

    Please put out a sex tape. Pretty please?

  14. mugby November 8, 2011 at 2:08 pm #

    I find pencil dancing to be an excellent workout!

  15. Dph012000 November 8, 2011 at 2:27 pm #

    Alison, this is my first response on your vlog board, so like you, I'll ask that you and the others on here “be nice.”

    It's not a “fat heart” Alison, it's a big heart. You care. You share. And You 'scare' (not us, but yourself) just like the rest of us. What you do for all of us out here is essentially expose yourself in ways that we are probably too uncomfortable to deal with in a forum that you ARE comfortable in. And I, for one, say “Thank YOU Alison.”I've not listened to a single Vlog that in some way didn't touch a nerve with me or reflect upon my own life in some way. I have many an issue that I try to deal with and sometimes I choose ways that aren't positive – probably the biggest culprit is drinking to much. But I consider myself to be a little funny and I often wonder if I hide behind that instead of dealing with issues in a sincere and productive way. I mean, I think there's always room for laughter and I laugh at myself all the time (and You, Adam and Bald-Brian everyday).

    Embrace your strengths and keep lifting yourself up. You're a wonderful part of my daily choices and I hope you are a part of them for a long time to come.

  16. Kylepurschke November 8, 2011 at 2:49 pm #

    Loved it, thanks for being so candid. 🙂

  17. ISaidGoodDay November 8, 2011 at 2:58 pm #

    I listen to the podcast and what I can tell from that is you are smart and funny.  You sound great and the shows without you are not as good as the ones with you.  You are a talented young woman and that is unassailable.

  18. Mark Ivey November 8, 2011 at 3:10 pm #

    Strange, the things we carry with us into adulthood. I was always called ugly when I was a kid. I was geeky and wore glasses and had crooked teeth. Working out, contacts, and braces fixed all of that, but I was still amazed when attractive women wanted to spend time with me. I carried that ugly moniker with me into adulthood, and I still do to some extent, despite all evidence to the contrary.

  19. Desertrunner62 November 8, 2011 at 3:31 pm #

    Puppies are great. Sadly, they turn into dogs; but that's OK cause dogs are great too! Not so sure about curtains though.

  20. Cherri Porter November 8, 2011 at 3:54 pm #

    Adam is an ass about “fatness” b/c he doesn't struggle with body issue stuff.

  21. HotForTootie November 8, 2011 at 3:59 pm #

    Hey kiddo.  I was working today and thinking about billionaires and the guys who have screwed the country to get a million more dollars on top of the millions they have.  And how they can't be any happier than I am.  I wouldn't take a billion dollars if it meant I had a plastic gold digging wife and a floppy old-man dick that even viagra couldn't make work.

    I'm a fucking mailman.  My fiancee dumped me 2 months ago out of the blue.  I have a belly.  But I have a nice house, a truck, a pretty good life and a handful of good friends which is worth a lot.  Don't carry around an anchor because it doesn't get ya anywhere.  I know it is easier said than done, but it can be done for sure.  It's not settling for less.  It's a rational assessment of where you are compared to where you've been.  

    Be proud of what you've accomplished, whether it's career, fitness/weight, whatever.  If you need more changes, go do it.  If someone outside wants to piss on your parade, tell them to shut up.  If your inside self wants to piss on your parade, tell yourself to shut up.   But be happy, there's nothing saying ya can't.  But you have to do it yourself.

  22. LouisBurgos November 8, 2011 at 1:08 pm #

    You are pretty Alison. 

    I would hit that. 
    Many would hit that. 
    Hundreds and hundreds of fellows would hit that.Not that we will. We are too polite to. But we would. And that thought alone is good.Right?Maybe not.Kinda weird if you think about it.
    Ahh. The life of the beautiful.

  23. Davidb451 November 8, 2011 at 1:17 pm #

    I lost 100 lbs in the last year. I’m 31 so i spent my teens and twenties very over weight. I understand.

  24. Jett November 8, 2011 at 1:19 pm #

    Let’s talk about curtains. As a fat person this video makes me feel like shit. What if someone found out Im fat!? That would be the worst! C’mon, you’re more interesting than this, Teressa.

  25. Tim Borbely November 8, 2011 at 1:21 pm #

    Heard the ‘cast, K N E W (hoped) this vlog post would be coming.  Felt awkward FOR you as I listened to the show. 🙁

    I must say though…you handled it well…with composure, professionalism, and dignity, both “live” and “upon review.”

    S’all good.  You rock.  *fist bump*

  26. geans November 8, 2011 at 1:21 pm #

    Alison, thank you. It must be so hard to bring that feeling around with you everywhere. I hope you’re able to keep talking about this until you’re no longer in a place where the mention of the topic throws you off like that. I know how unsettling it feels. 

  27. Mike November 8, 2011 at 1:22 pm #

    Getting it out there and addressing it quickly is probably the best thing you did for yourself, but I do think you’re wrong on one item…when you reveal something about yourself in the past, people don’t all of sudden change the way they see you or change what they think of you going forward…they just see you for who you are in the present and what they’ve known of you since their first impression of you…(maybe that’s too simplistic)..but if you apply it to others around you, you know its true…keep it up, keep being funny, get out of your own head..

  28. boinkity November 8, 2011 at 1:23 pm #

    Hi Alison! I was thinking that the problem is NOT that you feel uncomfortable about being overweight at one time. Your problem is, and may continue to be that your anxiety is based on your need for absolute control and the desire for perfection. I’ve seen a trend ever since you were in New York. First, the couch. No other couch was acceptable except for ONE couch. Then when you moved to SoCal, there was the whole apartment hunt that took you 100 times longer than the average, normal human being. Now, there is this curtain crisis that you are having to deal with on a daily basis. I don’t think the pain is that you were once a little overweight. The pain is that you feel this is some of type of flaw with you as a person, and you have no control over the past, and people knowing the truth. The only problem is that the person that you are now, the person that everyone seems to really love, and enjoy, and is entertained by is probably a result of who you were in your past. Embrace your past fluffy self! Give thanks to the extra body that was once you, but no longer exists. The memory of Alison Rosen as a slightly larger version of the current svelt Alison Rosen should be looked at with kind regard and appreciation. I, too, will celebrate the once expansive Alison Rosen with a chocolate milkshake.

  29. Todd November 8, 2011 at 4:26 pm #

    Alison, If you were fat, you aren't now.  I doubt you were as fat as you think you were.   You are beautiful and smart which is why Adam picked you for the show.   I agreed with his choice and was already thinking he should hire you before he annouced you were his selection.  Think beautiful toughts and quit beating yourself up.  Keep up the good work on the ACS.  You guys make me laugh everyday!

  30. Rognog November 8, 2011 at 1:31 pm #

    Uncomfortable moments make good radio and today’s podcast was just that.  You’re not fat anymore.

  31. Ryan Quick November 8, 2011 at 4:33 pm #

    Oh did I ever cringe when that whole exchange happened.  🙁  I'm quite surprised Adam knows so little about you.

  32. Don P. Nagai November 8, 2011 at 1:34 pm #

    All I can say is we see the good, the skills, and the talent you demonstrate in everything we have the pleasure of viewing (or hearing on a podcast).  Nothing can change that.

  33. Jacks November 8, 2011 at 1:39 pm #

    Relax.  You are a smart and beautiful young women…….Also,  you may be fucking crazy.

  34. GunnaWanna November 8, 2011 at 4:39 pm #

    We'd love you even if you couldn't fit into a room. However, I'm starting to dislike Allen Carollo.

  35. tony decoste November 8, 2011 at 1:47 pm #

    you’re among the funniest women in the media, you shred the guitar like nobody’s business, and of course you’re beautiful. staying in shape is an uphill battle for most of us, until you mentioned the chubby girl comment on the show i just assumed you were always in shape but knowing that you aren’t perfect makes you even more attractive, because who the hell likes barbie? that blonde bitch is unrealistic. in short: haters are gonna hate because you’re awesome, plain and simple!

  36. Patrick A Crone November 8, 2011 at 1:50 pm #

    I know this is sorta a back handed compliment, but I think you being a chubby kid made you a much better thin adult. I was a chubby kid through out my high school years, and although it sucked being heavy, it made me develope other strengths in my personality.

  37. Robert November 8, 2011 at 1:51 pm #

    I was jealous of the guys in tournament of Rosen. Never thought you were even a LITTLE overweight. I think you’re forgetting the root of the compliment that Ace gave you: you’re SMART. And while it’s trite to say it, wverybody’s appearance will eventually be an issue; your personality is what you have to live with. You’ll make someone very happy in your old age. Not to mention that you’re beautiful, now.

    Please put out a sex tape. Pretty please?

  38. Gnarlex November 8, 2011 at 4:58 pm #

    I get your anxiety. Adam was oblivious to your weight issues because they weren't on the show. He also has a nasty streak of  'grinding' on what he sees as shortcomings, e.g. Lynch is cheap, Brian's overconfident, Ray rents, Dr. Bruce owes him money, etc. Because you're neither a dude nor a female he doesn't know, I don't think he'll do it to you.  I love Adam, but it's definitely his worst trait.

  39. mugby November 8, 2011 at 2:08 pm #

    I find pencil dancing to be an excellent workout!

  40. Mopmonkey November 8, 2011 at 5:18 pm #

    We all have imperfections,now, or in our history. Some of us have learned to not carry that baggage around. Try to find some peace. You're smart,very funny and beautiful.

  41. Dph012000 November 8, 2011 at 2:27 pm #

    Alison, this is my first response on your vlog board, so like you, I’ll ask that you and the others on here “be nice.”

    It’s not a “fat heart” Alison, it’s a big heart. You care. You share. And You ‘scare’ (not us, but yourself) just like the rest of us. What you do for all of us out here is essentially expose yourself in ways that we are probably too uncomfortable to deal with in a forum that you ARE comfortable in. And I, for one, say “Thank YOU Alison.”I’ve not listened to a single Vlog that in some way didn’t touch a nerve with me or reflect upon my own life in some way. I have many an issue that I try to deal with and sometimes I choose ways that aren’t positive – probably the biggest culprit is drinking to much. But I consider myself to be a little funny and I often wonder if I hide behind that instead of dealing with issues in a sincere and productive way. I mean, I think there’s always room for laughter and I laugh at myself all the time (and You, Adam and Bald-Brian everyday).

    Embrace your strengths and keep lifting yourself up. You’re a wonderful part of my daily choices and I hope you are a part of them for a long time to come.

  42. Kylepurschke November 8, 2011 at 2:49 pm #

    Loved it, thanks for being so candid. 🙂

  43. ISaidGoodDay November 8, 2011 at 2:58 pm #

    I listen to the podcast and what I can tell from that is you are smart and funny.  You sound great and the shows without you are not as good as the ones with you.  You are a talented young woman and that is unassailable.

  44. Reggie Anderson November 8, 2011 at 3:10 pm #

    Strange, the things we carry with us into adulthood. I was always called ugly when I was a kid. I was geeky and wore glasses and had crooked teeth. Working out, contacts, and braces fixed all of that, but I was still amazed when attractive women wanted to spend time with me. I carried that ugly moniker with me into adulthood, and I still do to some extent, despite all evidence to the contrary. 

  45. giantELF November 8, 2011 at 6:17 pm #

    Have you seen photos of Adam when he was in high school?  He likes to portray himself as muscled for football.  but he was fat.

  46. Desertrunner62 November 8, 2011 at 3:31 pm #

    Puppies are great. Sadly, they turn into dogs; but that’s OK cause dogs are great too! Not so sure about curtains though.

  47. Rob K November 8, 2011 at 6:40 pm #

    What those uncomfortable, awkward feelings actually are is you becoming a stronger and better person. It takes a little time, but you'll see. And ditto to everyone who has told you how great you are. I saw it on Red Eye and I hear it every day on the podcast.

  48. Cherri Porter November 8, 2011 at 3:54 pm #

    Adam is an ass about “fatness” b/c he doesn’t struggle with body issue stuff.

  49. HotForTootie November 8, 2011 at 3:59 pm #

    Hey kiddo.  I was working today and thinking about billionaires and the guys who have screwed the country to get a million more dollars on top of the millions they have.  And how they can’t be any happier than I am.  I wouldn’t take a billion dollars if it meant I had a plastic gold digging wife and a floppy old-man dick that even viagra couldn’t make work.

    I’m a fucking mailman.  My fiancee dumped me 2 months ago out of the blue.  I have a belly.  But I have a nice house, a truck, a pretty good life and a handful of good friends which is worth a lot.  Don’t carry around an anchor because it doesn’t get ya anywhere.  I know it is easier said than done, but it can be done for sure.  It’s not settling for less.  It’s a rational assessment of where you are compared to where you’ve been.  

    Be proud of what you’ve accomplished, whether it’s career, fitness/weight, whatever.  If you need more changes, go do it.  If someone outside wants to piss on your parade, tell them to shut up.  If your inside self wants to piss on your parade, tell yourself to shut up.   But be happy, there’s nothing saying ya can’t.  But you have to do it yourself.

  50. Dan November 8, 2011 at 7:08 pm #

    Miss Rosen,  You are beautiful, and new.  Every minute you are new and you are only who you choose to be at that moment.  That is to say, you aren't that girl that you suspect was fat.  You couldn't be less like her.  You are powerfully funny around celebrities that would make some of the more self assured people out there feel meek.  You are gorgeous and if you weren't.. who cares?  You are wildly successful and envied by tons of people.  Do you thinks your weight has held you back??  Has it stopped you from being with someone you love?  Pursuing a successful career?  Frankly, given that right NOW you think you might be heavy when every redblooded american man is would kill to just get to hang out with you, I doubt you were as heavy and you remember yourself.  Regardless, you look wonderful, you handled the podcast with grace and dignity  and you should be ONLY proud of where you are.

  51. Mick November 8, 2011 at 7:19 pm #

    Everyone has their insecurities they drag with them from childhood. If anything, it makes you more empathetic, and it probably has contributed to your sense of humor and your thoughtfulness. The fact that it still bothers you makes you human, and the fact that you are able to talk about it in this forum probably helps more people than you can ever know. Your contribution to the show is considerable and growing. We love to hear your well timed chime ins, opinions and giggle.

  52. Todd November 8, 2011 at 4:26 pm #

    Alison, If you were fat, you aren’t now.  I doubt you were as fat as you think you were.   You are beautiful and smart which is why Adam picked you for the show.   I agreed with his choice and was already thinking he should hire you before he annouced you were his selection.  Think beautiful toughts and quit beating yourself up.  Keep up the good work on the ACS.  You guys make me laugh everyday!

  53. Ryan November 8, 2011 at 4:33 pm #

    Oh did I ever cringe when that whole exchange happened.  🙁  I’m quite surprised Adam knows so little about you.

  54. GunnaWanna November 8, 2011 at 4:39 pm #

    We’d love you even if you couldn’t fit into a room. However, I’m starting to dislike Allen Carollo.

  55. Gnarlex November 8, 2011 at 4:58 pm #

    I get your anxiety. Adam was oblivious to your weight issues because they weren’t on the show. He also has a nasty streak of  ‘grinding’ on what he sees as shortcomings, e.g. Lynch is cheap, Brian’s overconfident, Ray rents, Dr. Bruce owes him money, etc. Because you’re neither a dude nor a female he doesn’t know, I don’t think he’ll do it to you.  I love Adam, but it’s definitely his worst trait.

  56. Matt November 8, 2011 at 8:15 pm #

    I think you should embrace your inner fat girl in the closet and find peace with that part of your life /yourself. I know for me it was painful as well growing up overweight most of my life and every now and then I still catch myself being effected by it even though It's been a few years since I was on the verge of morbid obesity I am in much better shape now. I don't think I'll get over it completely anytime soon, if ever. It's just a part of who I am. However at the same time I do make a point to remember that the trials of the “fat boy within” also helped me develop a thicker skin, wittier sense of humor, and most of all a more persistent drive to achieve and APPRECIATE what I have & who I am today, and sometimes I actually thank “Fat Matt” (my nick name in grade school- jr. high)  for that.

    Anyway you have a gift and I really enjoy getting to hear you share it on the Podcast with Adam . Also I don't think it's ever not awkward to end a one sided conversation on camera. Maybe you should have some sort of closing music/graphic to fade out to or something? hmmm.  

  57. Gonzorama November 8, 2011 at 8:17 pm #

    Your self image is part of what makes you who you are – a beautiful, intelligent and funny person with the deep-caring center of someone who has felt hurt, sadness and loneliness. Consider yourself mature and well-rounded! We admire you for your wit, your heart and your spontaneity. You're fine.

  58. Mopmonkey November 8, 2011 at 5:18 pm #

    We all have imperfections,now, or in our history. Some of us have learned to not carry that baggage around. Try to find some peace. You’re smart,very funny and beautiful.

  59. John (Cape Coral, FL) November 8, 2011 at 8:35 pm #

    C'mon Allison.  Loose that baggage and get used to the woman you are now…, fun, smart and attractive.  Laugh at the past and focus on the future.  I don't know you but I love you on the podcast.  Be well.

  60. Onemansopinion November 8, 2011 at 8:36 pm #

    Not sure how I stumbled on this, but I'm the exact same way. I was chubby and unhealthy my whole life, and even now that I'm 26 and run 30-40 miles a week and have a completely new insight on diet and exercise, the record in my head and the image in the mirror is still the same wildly depressed, insecure, and ultimately unattractive kid I used to be. I'm in therapy also (and have been for a while) and know how it feels to be EMBARRASSED at constantly having to come back to the same issues over and over again. It's almost like after having said it once, we should be over the pain, like therapy was some course we enrolled in with a set curriculum we'd see the sure and steady benefits of if only we stuck to the syllabus. But experience has shown me you return and return to orbit the same issues, which, even though we feel like a failure at having to recount them again, should speak to their importance, yes? Anyway, just one man's opinion. All the best!

  61. Cohen_5000 November 8, 2011 at 8:42 pm #

    Now I know why you're still on the show .. which I love .. and strangely, I hope you stay .. but, you should be thinking about your next project, you're crazy good .. actually, whatever you do, i hope you can stay with the AC Show .. but clearly, you've got self confidence issues .. which, oddly .. you are able to mask 99.9% of the time on the show .. People should know who you are .. You're very good at this!

    …and you're lovely, so shuddup! …and maybe go back to therapy…

  62. giantELF November 8, 2011 at 6:17 pm #

    Have you seen photos of Adam when he was in high school?  He likes to portray himself as muscled for football.  but he was fat.

  63. Rob K November 8, 2011 at 6:40 pm #

    What those uncomfortable, awkward feelings actually are is you becoming a stronger and better person. It takes a little time, but you’ll see. And ditto to everyone who has told you how great you are. I saw it on Red Eye and I hear it every day on the podcast.

  64. Joshua Irwin November 8, 2011 at 9:45 pm #

    Alison… You are awesome!!! That is all.

  65. The40yroldvirgin November 8, 2011 at 9:45 pm #

    wow congrads dude I'm trying to lose that much now

  66. The40yroldvirgin November 8, 2011 at 9:55 pm #

    Rosenator,
    Number one it is ok to joke around and stuff, but there is a limit in life. Yes, even in comedy. Adam Carolla needs to be a little more sensitive to your issues. Sure he can bag on other people, but when it comes to his co-workers he needs to be more kind. I hope he doesn't make little digs at his wife like this in real life. Remember Karen Carpenter the singer, some reporter caller her fat in passing and it setup a change of events that made her more anorexic and led eventually to her death. Ok don't freak out, I'm not saying this is going to happen with you. But what I am saying is that in life we all need to be a little more sensitive to those close to us, even though we joke around with them alot.  I'm sorry you were hurt by his comments, but we just want to say we love you, and you make us smile every time you are on the podcast. Don't be afraid to stand up for yourself and establish some boundaries from time to time. Rosenator your rule!
    Peace out,

    40….: )

  67. Ender November 8, 2011 at 9:57 pm #

    Alison I'd let you cup my balls. That's how sexy you are

  68. Dan November 8, 2011 at 7:08 pm #

    Miss Rosen,  You are beautiful, and new.  Every minute you are new and you are only who you choose to be at that moment.  That is to say, you aren’t that girl that you suspect was fat.  You couldn’t be less like her.  You are powerfully funny around celebrities that would make some of the more self assured people out there feel meek.  You are gorgeous and if you weren’t.. who cares?  You are wildly successful and envied by tons of people.  Do you thinks your weight has held you back??  Has it stopped you from being with someone you love?  Pursuing a successful career?  Frankly, given that right NOW you think you might be heavy when every redblooded american man is would kill to just get to hang out with you, I doubt you were as heavy and you remember yourself.  Regardless, you look wonderful, you handled the podcast with grace and dignity  and you should be ONLY proud of where you are.

  69. Mick November 8, 2011 at 7:19 pm #

    Everyone has their insecurities they drag with them from childhood. If anything, it makes you more empathetic, and it probably has contributed to your sense of humor and your thoughtfulness. The fact that it still bothers you makes you human, and the fact that you are able to talk about it in this forum probably helps more people than you can ever know. Your contribution to the show is considerable and growing. We love to hear your well timed chime ins, opinions and giggle.

  70. emiLyQ November 8, 2011 at 10:55 pm #

    You should write a fake book on this topic.  Would be great, and maybe not fake!  There's a lot there.

  71. Matt November 8, 2011 at 8:15 pm #

    I think you should embrace your inner fat girl in the closet and find peace with that part of your life /yourself. I know for me it was painful as well growing up overweight most of my life and every now and then I still catch myself being effected by it even though It’s been a few years since I was on the verge of morbid obesity I am in much better shape now. I don’t think I’ll get over it completely anytime soon, if ever. It’s just a part of who I am. However at the same time I do make a point to remember that the trials of the “fat boy within” also helped me develop a thicker skin, wittier sense of humor, and most of all a more persistent drive to achieve and APPRECIATE what I have & who I am today, and sometimes I actually thank “Fat Matt” (my nick name in grade school- jr. high)  for that.

    Anyway you have a gift and I really enjoy getting to hear you share it on the Podcast with Adam . Also I don’t think it’s ever not awkward to end a one sided conversation on camera. Maybe you should have some sort of closing music/graphic to fade out to or something? hmmm.  

  72. Gonzorama November 8, 2011 at 8:17 pm #

    Your self image is part of what makes you who you are – a beautiful, intelligent and funny person with the deep-caring center of someone who has felt hurt, sadness and loneliness. Consider yourself mature and well-rounded! We admire you for your wit, your heart and your spontaneity. You’re fine.

  73. John (Cape Coral, FL) November 8, 2011 at 8:35 pm #

    C’mon Allison.  Loose that baggage and get used to the woman you are now…, fun, smart and attractive.  Laugh at the past and focus on the future.  I don’t know you but I love you on the podcast.  Be well.

  74. Onemansopinion November 8, 2011 at 8:36 pm #

    Not sure how I stumbled on this, but I’m the exact same way. I was chubby and unhealthy my whole life, and even now that I’m 26 and run 30-40 miles a week and have a completely new insight on diet and exercise, the record in my head and the image in the mirror is still the same wildly depressed, insecure, and ultimately unattractive kid I used to be. I’m in therapy also (and have been for a while) and know how it feels to be EMBARRASSED at constantly having to come back to the same issues over and over again. It’s almost like after having said it once, we should be over the pain, like therapy was some course we enrolled in with a set curriculum we’d see the sure and steady benefits of if only we stuck to the syllabus. But experience has shown me you return and return to orbit the same issues, which, even though we feel like a failure at having to recount them again, should speak to their importance, yes? Anyway, just one man’s opinion. All the best!

  75. Cohen_5000 November 8, 2011 at 8:42 pm #

    Now I know why you’re still on the show .. which I love .. and strangely, I hope you stay .. but, you should be thinking about your next project, you’re crazy good .. actually, whatever you do, i hope you can stay with the AC Show .. but clearly, you’ve got self confidence issues .. which, oddly .. you are able to mask 99.9% of the time on the show .. People should know who you are .. You’re very good at this!

    …and you’re lovely, so shuddup! …and maybe go back to therapy…

  76. Joshua Irwin November 8, 2011 at 9:45 pm #

    Alison… You are awesome!!! That is all.

  77. The40yroldvirgin November 8, 2011 at 9:45 pm #

    wow congrads dude I’m trying to lose that much now

  78. The40yroldvirgin November 8, 2011 at 9:55 pm #

    Rosenator,
    Number one it is ok to joke around and stuff, but there is a limit in life. Yes, even in comedy. Adam Carolla needs to be a little more sensitive to your issues. Sure he can bag on other people, but when it comes to his co-workers he needs to be more kind. I hope he doesn’t make little digs at his wife like this in real life. Remember Karen Carpenter the singer, some reporter caller her fat in passing and it setup a change of events that made her more anorexic and led eventually to her death. Ok don’t freak out, I’m not saying this is going to happen with you. But what I am saying is that in life we all need to be a little more sensitive to those close to us, even though we joke around with them alot.  I’m sorry you were hurt by his comments, but we just want to say we love you, and you make us smile every time you are on the podcast. Don’t be afraid to stand up for yourself and establish some boundaries from time to time. Rosenator your rule!
    Peace out,

    40….: )

  79. Ender November 8, 2011 at 9:57 pm #

    Alison I’d let you cup my balls. That’s how sexy you are

  80. emiLyQ November 8, 2011 at 10:55 pm #

    You should write a fake book on this topic.  Would be great, and maybe not fake!  There’s a lot there.

  81. Larry November 9, 2011 at 1:42 am #

    You’re the best Alison.

    It would have been better if you were eating throughout the whole blog.

  82. hobbesish November 9, 2011 at 5:53 am #

    Alison,

    Here's the way I see it: You're quite funny, and also enviably intelligent and articulate. I couldn't care less how you look. You work in the entertainment industry, and you do a marvelous job at it. Don't beat yourself up.

  83. hobbesish November 9, 2011 at 5:53 am #

    Alison,

    Here’s the way I see it: You’re quite funny, and also enviably intelligent and articulate. I couldn’t care less how you look. You work in the entertainment industry, and you do a marvelous job at it. Don’t beat yourself up.

  84. stnuntrnd November 9, 2011 at 11:49 am #

    I tend to agree with Mike's comment, “they just see you for who you are in the present “.
    Alec Baldwin looks the way he does right now, but if he succeeds in his no sugar regime, maybe he'll once again look like he did in Working Girl. Would be nice. So as regards physical appearance, we take people for what they are in the present.

  85. Priscilla November 9, 2011 at 1:02 pm #

    Alison you rock! Anyone who can keep up with the Aceman's brain is pretty damned great. I wanted to be a gal to comment on this vlog. Love the new intro. 

    Body issues are common, you are so beautiful and SO smart and talented. I see great things ahead for you….

  86. Tony Edwards November 9, 2011 at 2:37 pm #

    Jeez – I just want to give you a big hug.  You are the funniest, smartest, loveliest person I hear every day.  I know this issue is one that haunts you a little but it shouldn't.  You've moved past it – you're beautiful – but even if you WERE heavy (which you are not), you'd still be the same beautiful, funny, sweet person.  We all love you just as you are.  Just promise never to zip it, cunt!

  87. Tony Muckleroy November 9, 2011 at 2:47 pm #

    Don't toy with me mugs!  It's bad enough we get one vlog about every month now.  But no more pencil dance…

  88. stnuntrnd November 9, 2011 at 11:49 am #

    I tend to agree with Mike’s comment, “they just see you for who you are in the present “.
    Alec Baldwin looks the way he does right now, but if he succeeds in his no sugar regime, maybe he’ll once again look like he did in Working Girl. Would be nice. So as regards physical appearance, we take people for what they are in the present.

  89. Priscilla November 9, 2011 at 1:02 pm #

    Alison you rock! Anyone who can keep up with the Aceman’s brain is pretty damned great. I wanted to be a gal to comment on this vlog. Love the new intro. 

    Body issues are common, you are so beautiful and SO smart and talented. I see great things ahead for you…. 

  90. mugby November 9, 2011 at 5:22 pm #

    At least we still have the memories TonyMu. I wonder if she has any T-Shirts left? I never got one =/

  91. MootsVaMoots November 9, 2011 at 2:37 pm #

    Jeez – I just want to give you a big hug.  You are the funniest, smartest, loveliest person I hear every day.  I know this issue is one that haunts you a little but it shouldn’t.  You’ve moved past it – you’re beautiful – but even if you WERE heavy (which you are not), you’d still be the same beautiful, funny, sweet person.  We all love you just as you are.  Just promise never to zip it, cunt!

  92. Tony Muckleroy November 9, 2011 at 2:47 pm #

    Don’t toy with me mugs!  It’s bad enough we get one vlog about every month now.  But no more pencil dance…

  93. mugby November 9, 2011 at 5:22 pm #

    At least we still have the memories TonyMu. I wonder if she has any T-Shirts left? I never got one =/

  94. Jesvil November 9, 2011 at 6:08 pm #

    Your past is the past. And who you are now is beautiful.

  95. greius November 10, 2011 at 8:06 am #

    Your post was heartfelt and interesting, however the ads by google on the post make it very funny. They are not as kind as your fans.

  96. greius November 10, 2011 at 8:06 am #

    Your post was heartfelt and interesting, however the ads by google on the post make it very funny. They are not as kind as your fans.

  97. abw November 10, 2011 at 5:09 pm #

    hey what happened to ARIYNBF?

  98. abw November 10, 2011 at 5:09 pm #

    hey what happened to ARIYNBF?

  99. murgs November 13, 2011 at 9:11 am #

    Jesus, have I ever been there.  I was a fat girl until very recently and it's a huge mind fuck to not be one any more.  No matter how far you've come physically and emotionally, it still stings to go back to that place.  Still, it's inspiring to see that you have come so far.  I'm still a sad fat girl in my head and it's encouraging to know that even though some of that shit lingers, it's possible to move forward and become more accepting of yourself and the person you once were.  You're a truly remarkable dame.  Thanks for sharing!

  100. murgs November 13, 2011 at 9:11 am #

    Jesus, have I ever been there.  I was a fat girl until very recently and it’s a huge mind fuck to not be one any more.  No matter how far you’ve come physically and emotionally, it still stings to go back to that place.  Still, it’s inspiring to see that you have come so far.  I’m still a sad fat girl in my head and it’s encouraging to know that even though some of that shit lingers, it’s possible to move forward and become more accepting of yourself and the person you once were.  You’re a truly remarkable dame.  Thanks for sharing!

  101. TS November 13, 2011 at 9:24 pm #

    Thanks for sharing.  Feel free to share the things which matter to you, you usually strike a chord in people.

  102. TS November 13, 2011 at 9:24 pm #

    Thanks for sharing.  Feel free to share the things which matter to you, you usually strike a chord in people.

  103. Mulgrew November 21, 2011 at 10:30 pm #

    It saddened me to see in your eyes that you may have been crying prior to this Vlog.  I hope that is not the case.  I cannot presume to speak for others, but I very much enjoy what you bring to Adam's show, and I would consider it very much a loss if you were not there.  Be well.

  104. Mulgrew November 21, 2011 at 10:30 pm #

    It saddened me to see in your eyes that you may have been crying prior to this Vlog.  I hope that is not the case.  I cannot presume to speak for others, but I very much enjoy what you bring to Adam’s show, and I would consider it very much a loss if you were not there.  Be well.

  105. Mike November 26, 2011 at 9:46 pm #

    Adam has insecurities that haunt him, so do you.  You both would do best to forget the past and move on.  I really admire your guts in acknowledging these events.  Keep up these good instincts and it will all work out for the best, because like a river flows to the sea, most people love you for who you are, just don't expect them to ram it into you comment-wise everyday like the assholes do.

  106. Mike November 26, 2011 at 9:46 pm #

    Adam has insecurities that haunt him, so do you.  You both would do best to forget the past and move on.  I really admire your guts in acknowledging these events.  Keep up these good instincts and it will all work out for the best, because like a river flows to the sea, most people love you for who you are, just don’t expect them to ram it into you comment-wise everyday like the assholes do.

  107. Dave James December 11, 2011 at 4:44 pm #

    Alison, we gotta get you a Wiki page. WTH?

  108. Dave James December 11, 2011 at 4:44 pm #

    Alison, we gotta get you a Wiki page. WTH?

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